New Year and New Goals!

So I had a quite distractible summer and fall for 2010. Crafting did go well, especially after my dear hubby fixed my favorite sewing machine for Christmas. I made some stuffed animals and they turned out pretty cute! The best one was a little Eeyore that we gave to our niece for Christmas. I will need to get some pics up. I also have been working on my craft room- I built a tool board with pegboard and sheet metal, raised up my ironing/work table, threw tons of stuff away as well as giving away stuff I didn't need any more. I am working on streamlining what I have, what I will actually use and putting everything away. 


Cole has been growing so fast! He is going to be 5 in May. He loves preschool and I have to get him enrolled in kindergarten for the fall. Today he met his new primary teachers and stopped freaking out about changing to the new class. 


October was a hard month for us. We found out at the end of September that I was pregnant! I know, amazing. When you are doing fertility treatments, it is amazing how much of the whole process is planned and tracked. By the time that most pregnancies are barely detected I had gone to 5 dr appointments!! We saw the heartbeat at 6 weeks 5 days and went back for another ultrasound at 8 weeks 5 days. That was when we learned that our baby's heart had stopped beating. There was no reason or something that explained the loss, but it was devastating. It was the first appointment that my hubby had been able to make it to and Cole was there as well. But I did have an amazing experience during this appointment. Just before we went into the ultrasound room, I just had a weird feeling. I got up on the table and they began the ultrasound. I looked at the screen, searching for the flutter of the heart. I was so amazed at how much the baby had grown since the last ultrasound. There was no flutter, no movement. My doctor moved the scanner, but there was nothing. She said that she was so sorry but there was no heartbeat. I looked up at the ceiling, then rolled my head to the side where my husband and son were sitting. It was then that the most amazing feeling i had ever felt poured over me. I felt the most peaceful feeling of gratitude for what I had at that moment. Yes I was loosing this most wanted and prayed for pregnancy, but it was going to be fine. I had so much. I couldn't even cry. I don't know why I didn't struggle more with the miscarriage, but maybe it was a preparation type experience. 


My sweet hubby and my parents took it the hardest I think. My dear dad showed up at my door with a bucket of pansies because they were the only purple flower in bloom that late. (The irony of that will be explained later!) 


I have learned a lot this last year and I want to do better this year. I am making a goal to post something every week. I want to spend time doing the things that bring me happiness, stress relief and peace. I really enjoy crafting so I want to that. I am also wanting to fulfill more goals but I have to work them out more first.


Anyway, random as ever, I hope everyone had a wonderful new year and is ready to make 2011 a crafty one!